I meant to say historical personality. I thought I had heard about this type of ego-death when reading some of the early pioneer’s works but can’t find a mention. Basically it was the idea of who I was that had built up over time based on people’s assumptions, judgements, and the way they treated me. My built up idea of self was enforcing negative looping behavior patterns until tripping freed me from that past idea, my historical personality. This led to me feeling a more open and unburdened sense of identity, allowing my idea of self to be an unfolding story rather than someone else's half-telling