Motivation doesn't necessarily help.

I used to be an extremely motivated engineer. I cared about the code that I wrote, the other people on my team, making sure things were documented and understandable. I tried to write good code where I could, and detailed PRs and issue writeups where I couldn't.

Despite that, I was always paranoid I wasn't doing enough, because it always felt like there was someone else that was shipping more code than I was. Some of this was almost certainly social comparison bias and impostor syndrome-like feelings at work; but I also had a string of managers that pointed out all the work I was doing, and how I was helping the team as a whole.

Eventually, the company got acquired by exactly the sort of company this article is about, my manager got a new director from outside the company, and my manager had to go on extended medical leave after a cancer diagnosis, leaving the director with ~7 new reports. I started hearing about how the number of PRs I was opening weren't as numerous as some other people's, and the code didn't look "hard" enough to their glance. Never mind if the easy code was hard to come to, or if talking through it after the fact they agreed with my assessment, or if I had performed a detailed investigation and writeup, or if my peers left reviews or public plaudits about work I had done. Those weren't PRs, which is ultimately were what they wanted, since that was the metric they could easily see, and justify to their boss.

I did _try_ to do better by their metric, though I never had a definition of what "better" would actually be. Funnily enough, that person was fired a few months after I was.

Also kind of funny to me is that, if I weren't motivated and didn't care, none of this would've affected me all that much.