I feel like a lot of people desperately want to make some kind of impact on the world. Something that causes some number of people to acknowledge their existence (or the effects of it).
It takes real effort to do that in a positive way with a society built around surfacing negativity.
Most folks find that it’s a lot easier to tear down, than build up.
I’ve always really enjoyed building up, but it’s definitely not the easiest path.
I have managed to make a couple of mid-sized splashes, but many folks have no idea that I was behind them, which is fine with me.
“One wants to be loved, in lack thereof admired, in lack thereof feared, in lack thereof loathed and despised. One wants to instill some sort of emotion in people. The soul trembles before emptiness and desires contact at any price.”
— From Doctor Glas (1905) by Hjalmar Söderberg
I think we need to recognize that there are people who genuinely get off on hurting others, and it really isn't any more interesting than that.