BURN IT!

You are working against yourself in this problem.

To master cognitive capacity is similar to physical labor. There are those who do not resist the efficiency of over achieving and there are those who have no idea what that means.

Rathering a more convenient less exhaustive measure is where you short yourself.

Burn it. Do the work. The exhaustive measures will make you more complete than the banal need which drives you.

Your lazy delegation is the seed of your hypocrisy and it shall blossom into the fatigue of your self reliance.

Only you can bear the terrible burden of free will. And that comes at the cost of your determination to resolve.