It's a little like being invited to things out of pity, by people who know that you don't have any friends and struggle socially: It's nice, and I do feel their kindness from the gesture. But in the end, I only feel more isolated. I want people to hang out because they enjoy it, not out of charity. The social connection just isn't there, there's no sense of belonging, quite the opposite.
> I want people to hang out because they enjoy it, not out of charity
Maybe think about how you can behave so they can enjoy hanging out with you? Make it easy for them, that way you'll believe it :)