I honestly think you're wildly missing the point.

Writing is not about writing. Admittedly, that is a trick sentence [what does it mean??] and it exists because I'm trying to get you to re-evaluate my next words. And, I am doing this because I think you are missing the point.

Writing is about organizing your thoughts. You cannot have someone else organize your thoughts. Once you approach writing as a thought excercise, and not an output excercise, then there is a world of nuance and writing is more than just organizing your thoughts.

Further, you have allegedly spent 3 years on this. I know you're busy. That said, you can certainly spend 3 days on writing if you spent 3 years working on this.

Please don't double down on acting like everyone is just a hater. There is more depth to the criticism than I think is being acknowledged.

P.s, if you feel "blocked" writing and think of it as just about output, try this: (0) Ask yourself what you want to convey, why; to whom. (1) Write without inhibition (2) Edit, cut, delete. Refer to (0); look at what seems higher word count in proportion to its value.

There are other tips to editing and writing. This is one rough off the cuff formula that I think tracks & may benefit you, especially since you seem to see yourself as a worse writer than you may actually be.