I have a stoic mindset, I try to not care about things that are outside my sphere of influence. While the cancer was unfortunate it was out of my control. Having my YCW15 batchmate step up for me during my initial set of treatments to get me Shasqi opened my eyes that I could help create and take new medicines. It was within my sphere of influence. When I reached the end of standard of care I stepped down from the CEO role of GitLab and pushed to do this for me. While it was hard it was easier than I expected and I created companies to help other patients in the same way (maximum diagnostics and single patient IND pathway).
Philosphical treatments have got a bad rap because it is so easy for conmen to convert them into fake hope, but when properly applied they are still amazingly effective. It's just that "properly applied" is very often not profitable because all the applicable texts and practices have been quite literally known for thousands of years and are available through well known texts in the public domain.
And Sytse if you read this: beterschap en als dat niet helpt: sterkte. Cancer sucks.