> It frankly feels like you’re trying hard to justify to yourself why you do things you know deep down aren’t right.

The opposite. Watching borderline criminal people and even actual criminals be much more successful than me honestly makes me depressed and sometimes makes me curse my upbringing. I could be a lot more successful than I am right now if I was sociopathic enough.

I live in a country so corrupt the supreme court is not only involved in but is actively covering up scandals literally right now. The only people who mustered enough balls to protest them are in jail right now for a coup attempt, and some of them have already died in prison.

So I just don't blame people anymore when they just give up and start playing the game.