The thing is, if you never question anything, just lifing is worth it in itself.

If you do think too much about everything, and you survive this, you will land somewhere and this somewhere will be content.

I'm thinking about happiness and what I want for so long, that I now have crossed my half life point.

You also need to have a certain amount of freedom to even have this problem which makes it weird for others not having this. Oh you are not happy? But you have money?! I would be happy with money, i'm struggling.

Its weird if you sometimes think it would be interesting to struggle.