Used to work in this field. You're correct: not being able to talk about it is the worst part.
This is equally true of successes as well as challenges.
I did some cool, very impactful stuff in that job. I will go to jail for a long, long time if I ever go into detail about it.
Is there any type of internal support where you're allowed to chat about it?
What can you say, if anything, without going into detail?
Wow crazy, what’s it like having a job with absolutely zero ethical consideration?
If you speak to the correct people about illegal activities and unlawful orders you will not.
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