Subjective experience (what most people mean when they say "consciousness") is basically prior to logic, language, etc. "Making sense" just doesn't have a way to come to grips with it. Despite this, for most of us anyway, it plainly exists.

This is why it's The Hard Problem. We can neither ignore it nor make headway against it. It's no surprise that most attempts at talking about it are, as you've noticed, a disaster.

At the risk of making absurd claims about your interiority: you might be overthinking it. It's conceivable that you're an honest philosophical zombie in a world of conscious humans, but more likely whatever you do experience is the same thing everyone else is talking about, and you just don't resonate with their overly grandiose descriptions.